It's another day, he told me why am k
Bombing his phone early morning
I was taken by surprised
Perhaps he doesn't know the feeling of being kept "unknown" of the future events ....
The story basically goes like this....
Sunday supposedly is my family makan day, then he said he got Cdo friends outing, I am happy and most wiinging to let him attend this rare outing...
The reason I want him to enjoy too... But the questions and what made it most fishy, he won't tell me the time they meeting, the location they meeting and roughly what tine this meeting will ended ....
So i kept asking like a idiot, he kept avoiding this questions as if he isnnt meeting his guys army friends but more like meeting female
Another melting point is
I had to wait like a idiot since 2pm till 4pm, for him
Whereby he could actually stay longer with his friends to enjoy the rare
Meet up....while me can actually dress up and go out 1st
Isn't better ???? Now I had been wasting my time like idiot, and unable to meet up my colleagues
Sian...is this the man I am going to have babies with?
Is this the man that I had to spend te rest of my life with??
Doubts and questions really filling my mind and I am suffocating like hell...
Later at the wedding, Tl surely will mock me for throwing mc ystd
Talking about ystd
I was 65% sure this man is one son of a bitch
Why? Simple
I told him i was threaten by Tl SMS
And I am scared, although this isn't the 1st few times I received it but the bottom line is I am still scared
Told him but his response is like freaking shit, in the end I atilll had to be a man to console myself
Taking the bet gamble that Tl won't never come
Sigh? Told my mum about our serious lack of communication problem
Told
Me
What she feel..
She felt that in this r/s, my role is a teacher, a mother, a guidance
I felt so true
And tired
Super tired and exhausted
He always shoved me to one side and whenever there is a big pool of shit
I must stand in front of him to bear the shit
I felt utterly disappointed
Now time is 4:23 pm
He still at his friends
Sigh sigh waste my time
Waste my time
Waste my time
Waste my time
Waste my time
Waste my time
Waste my time
Waste my time
Freaking waste my time
