Saturday, January 14, 2012
Today is a good event :( twisted
He made the effort of coming down to meet me... I am surprised
And he shown Great differences in attending to my needs at the market and then many more
But yet we are
Strangers now...
Just strangers
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Listening to my heart, I don't know what wish to do :(
I miss dragon boat, I realized :(
I am "kick" out bcoz they got enough female ? New 3 female
I am gone
They are faster, younger than me ....
Sigh ... What I had now is my studies
And what had now is my grade
My age is piling up and I don't have much time left, I néed more time and more strength to go thru this
My r/s problem I rather don't see don hear
Don't know :(
Coz I am sick of pleasing
Sick of seeing
Sick of hearing
I am a reject woman for Secom
For dragon boat
2 years more
I need to buck up
Asp or insp
I am waiting for you :)
Jia you ... Planning for a short get away with family
Don't wish to go out with other man ...
Actually I understand he had actually done a lot for me. But why I can't be nice to him just a bit more??
I always expected so much more from him till my disappointment over drown myself... I guess this is pretty common of me?
Looking back at our past pic, we are ways smiling
Now? We hardly take any pic as a couple...
I am afraid the end is coming closets
Monday, January 02, 2012
How I feel ?? I felt so confused
I really don't know what am I holding on?
I want to talk to somebody
I need advice ....
He is making progress?
I don't know... But efforts I certainty can see ....
But why I don't know I don't know how to face him?
I dated him not bcoz of intimate stuffs lo...
I just want to date clean and nice ....
Actually I knew the reason why I am moving further away from him....
This is the main reason .... I am going siao soon
I really felt trapped
Super trapped ....
I knew I could go siao everytime he will
Give me this face ....
Why u betrayed me
Why u don't love me anymore
Why why why
I felt super bad
I don't know how to face him anymore ....
I felt so stress
Felt so sian
Felt so sian
Felt don't know
Don't know what to do....
Things aren't working well at all
I am running further away
The more he want to pull me closer but he isn't making the effort, or those things I am wishing him
To be doing
I am sorry toward him
Sunday, January 01, 2012
Year 2010 (end of it)
I remember, is him that spend the very last moment with ne...
For the past 2 year, it had always been the case...
This year :) 2011...
I am spending it with unknown ??
Nope, is going to be with hairy monsters hahha
Out of the sudden, a Lot of images flashed ...
We wearing the standard chartered singlet...
Eating fried rice ...
And fish soup at my house
Then make our way to one fullyeron ....
Kind of miss that feeling but I knew we can't get that back anymore
Sigh :(
What actually went wrong !
Is it true that 3rd party came along ! Shake head, remember or not, we kinda of ignored the signs of the r/s is in danger???
I hate ppl take me for me
And I never treated u like shit and idiot
Toll I committed the wronging
Coz I knew that this is the only way that I could gather courage to say good bye
19 days more to flat selection
I need to re think again
I
Could actually force myself to temporally accept
But how long more could I pretend ??
Sigh
What's is broken, can't be amend
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
There he goes Again, should I do the necessary check on his phone ?
I don't think so
Coz I don't think I would ever had that chance, I am surfing in my own mind.... Thinking of a perfect way to lay down....
Living in such life, ppls consider Xing Fu...who know exactly how I feel?
The more things he discovered
The worse we could ever be !!!
I give up....
I dot wish to carry on anymore ....
Coz I did him wrong 1st
No point for me to carry faking that smile....
He deserve something more ....
I give up
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
I am super exhausted ..spending the whole day talking, trying to solve thing out...I rather indeed I had turned out to be super extremely cold blooded ...
I knew the mistake truly Lies in the lies covering the lies which is generally created by me...
Whites lies turn ugly
Dirty lies turn even dirtier
I see him, suffering in my place...o really had this uger to let him
Go....
Feel like telling him, he deserve someone way better than me....
When he told me, never had this intention to let me go...I was taken by shock...
Coz I think he should trow me away toss into rubbish bin....
Anyway, my private life is my own doing...nothing to do with those ex BFs... in my life
Don't comment on my life when u are already super history in my life....
Get a life....
The next time u talk Ur fuckkng cock about my life, then u will start war with me...
Since when u ever won a single ear against me....
Don't try me....
Regard this as...I stay away from Ur business, and u should don't poke Ur nose into mine...
Once again, wish to apologize to the man I just hurt the most...
The more I think, the worse I thjnk I had become
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Currently? I am confused :(
After watching ruo xi eventually she is dead
Make me think, 4 ah GE, 8th ah GE all fought over her so badly
In the end, she married a man that she never had feeling for
14th ah GE but she is fortunate lady
Coz she got so much love by all those awesome man
No doubt she love the most is 4th ah GE, 8th ah GE is her 1st love....
In the end ? All bcoz of the dragon throne, these nan ren can't give up their power and fame for a girl
In the end, they lose the love of their life..... How I wish u are here....
I am missing u badly...
Miss stephy Wong, where are u??
I miss myself, where is my smile?
Since when I lost my smile? 'an
This is not good , I am so sleepy now good night
Being in love ? Nope, I wasn't :(
Currently, I am more like a stranger to him and so does him
